The Architecture of Empire
- Amber Howard
- 5 days ago
- 5 min read
A remembering of what shaped us — and what calls us home.
There is a reason the conversation about empire keeps threading its way into my writing these days.
It isn’t intentional, not in the sense of sitting down and deciding to write about systems or history or the large-scale patterns of human behaviour.
It feels more like empire keeps knocking — gently, persistently — asking to be acknowledged for the way it has lived inside us all.
And maybe that’s the thing: empire isn’t out there somewhere.
It’s in here.
In the way our shoulders tighten when someone asks how we’re doing.
In the uneasy relationship we have with rest.
In the belief that we need to earn our right to joy, or softness, or slowness.
In the pressure to be right, good, valuable, respectable — even when those standards were never ours to begin with.
Empire is the invisible architecture we were born into.
A structure older than our parents, older than the countries many of us come from, older than the stories we learned in school.
It is the long shadow cast by centuries of fear, conquest, scarcity, and separation — a shadow we learned to navigate long before we had language for it.
Why Empire Is Suddenly Everywhere in My Writing
I used to think the work was personal — my story, my patterns, my questions, my healing.
But the deeper I walk into the human condition, the more I understand that what we call personal is often just the individual expression of a much older, collective inheritance.
When I listen to people — truly listen — the same themes rise like a tide:
A sense of not-enoughness that doesn’t seem to have a source.
A relentless internal pressure to be better, do better, achieve more.
A quiet grief for something unnamed — a life that feels too small for the fullness of who we are.
A longing for connection that competes with a fear of vulnerability.
A fatigue that rest doesn’t seem to touch.
These aren’t character flaws.
These are symptoms of architecture.
And that’s why empire keeps entering my writing uninvited: because it keeps entering our lives uninvited, shaping us long before we knew we were being shaped.
Empire as an Inner Architecture
We often imagine empire as historical: kings, conquerors, armies, expansion.
But long before empire built monuments, it built mindsets.
It reorganized how humans understood themselves.
It reordered our relationships with land, time, one another, and ourselves.
It replaced reciprocity with extraction, belonging with performance, interdependence with hierarchy.
And once those patterns were established externally, they became internal.
Empire taught us:
to distrust our desires
to fear being wrong
to compete for worthiness
to obey structures rather than listen to our own knowing
to measure everything — including ourselves — through production, usefulness, and control
These teachings live under our skin.
We inherit them culturally, ancestrally, somatically.
This is why so many people feel a mismatch between the life they’re living and the life they sense is possible but cannot quite touch.
It is not because they are broken.
It is because they are trying to bloom in soil that was never meant to nurture the human soul.
The Unbinding
Unbinding is the moment we begin to see the architecture for what it is.
Not in an intellectual way — though learning helps — but in a visceral, embodied recognition:
This system I have been performing inside is not actually the truth of who I am.
Unbinding often begins quietly:
The exhaustion that stops us mid-sentence.
The ache that shows up at the end of the day and won’t be rationalized away.
The sudden awareness that a role, identity, or mask is too tight to keep wearing.
The moment we realize that the belief driving us is inherited, not chosen.
Unbinding isn’t rebellion; it’s remembering our original shape.
It is the gentle but uncompromising process of loosening the internalized expectations that have defined our worth.
It is the moment we ask, sometimes with trembling hands:
Who was I before I learned to measure myself?
Who was I before I believed I needed permission to be?
Heroes are not required for this work — just honesty, and the courage to stay with what we find.
The Remembering
Beneath the unbinding lies something older than empire.
A knowing that has never been extinguished, only quieted.
Remembering is not about looking backward; it is about reconnecting with the deeper rhythm that lives in all of us.
It’s the recognition that human beings were once organised around care, reciprocity, earth-based wisdom, and communal responsibility.
That belonging was not conditional.
That worthiness was not earned.
That life was not a ladder but a circle, a web, a rhythm.
When we remember this, even faintly, something inside us exhales.
The body softens.
The psyche expands.
The heart begins to recognize itself again.
Remembering is the return of a knowing that does not need to be taught:
I am allowed to exist as myself.
My life does not need to justify itself.
There is a place within me that empire could not reach.
Why This Conversation Matters Now
I think empire is showing up in my writing more because it is showing up in our collective life more.
We are living in a moment when the cracks are widening — in institutions, in economies, in leadership, in culture, and in our own internal landscapes.
And in those cracks, something else is becoming visible.
A hunger for honesty.
A longing for lives that feel meaningful, relational, grounded in truth rather than performance.
A deep fatigue with the constant pressure to be extraordinary, efficient, or endlessly resilient.
A recognition that the systems we inherited cannot carry the weight of who we are becoming.
Empire is not collapsing around us so much as fading within us.
We are beginning to see the architecture for what it is: a human invention, not a cosmic law.
A structure that shaped us, yes — but not a structure we are required to continue.
And the more we name it, the more we can choose differently.
Empire Built the Container.
But It Cannot Contain the Human Soul.
That is why I write about empire: not to criticize the past, but to illuminate the present.
To show that what we take as personal struggle is often structural inheritance.
To remind us that the ache we feel is the ache of remembering.
The ache of something inside us saying:
You were not made for this architecture.
And the truth of you is older than the empire you inherited.
If we can see the structure, we can loosen it.
If we can loosen it, we can remember.
And if we can remember, we can begin to live again — not from inheritance, but from essence.




Empire for me is my "Already Always Conversation" that I am married to because I need love and acceptance. I used to be driven to accomplish "MORE" to prove I'm good enough even though being abandoned as a child proved I was not good enough to be loved.
My unbinding process was my rebellion process, which started by not talking much until I was well into my teens.
So, not talking and not listening made for a interesting childhood without much in the way of happy memories. Now at a much advanced age, I am learning to listen, love, accept and live from there as a co-worker with God, bringing together the communities of the world in love and in…