We Have Been Colonized by Time
- Amber Howard
- Mar 19
- 6 min read
There is a grief I have been feeling for a long time, though I did not always have language for it.
It is not only that life is fast.
Not only that people are tired.
Not only that so many of us live with a constant, low-grade anxiety humming beneath the surface of our days.
It is deeper than busyness.
It is that we have been taught to live inside a version of time that does not belong to us.
We have been colonized by time.
I do not mean only clocks and calendars, though they are part of the story. I mean the way one particular way of organizing life has come to present itself as normal, rational, superior, and inevitable. I mean the way we have been trained to bow to schedules that do not arise from the body, the moon, the season, the soul, the land, or the sacred. I mean the way time has been turned into a system of control.
The modern world wants us to believe that time is neutral. Measurable. Dividable. Manageable. A resource. A commodity. Something to be saved, spent, wasted, optimized.
But human beings did not begin this way.
We began in relationship.
We knew time through dawn and dusk. Through hunger and harvest. Through bleeding and birthing. Through migration and monsoon. Through the return of the moon and the resting of the soil. Through ceremony, death, dream, and the long wisdom of wintering. Time was not a grid laid over life. Time was life, moving.
And then, slowly and not so slowly, many of us were severed from those rhythms.
Empires do not only colonize land. They colonize meaning. They colonize language. They colonize memory. And they colonize time.
They do this by imposing their own rhythms as the only legitimate ones. Their work hours. Their holy days. Their fiscal quarters. Their school terms. Their legal dates. Their notions of punctuality, productivity, efficiency, and progress.
Under empire, time becomes something external to the body and superior to it.
The body says rest. The system says keep going.
The body says bleed. The system says perform.
The body says grieve. The system says move on.
The season says slow down. The system says accelerate.
The soul says wait. The system says you are behind.
This is one of the deepest violences of the modern age: we have been taught to experience our own rhythms as inconvenience.
Think about what that means.
A woman’s cycle is expected to submit to a work culture built with little reverence for cyclical energy. Rest is treated like a reward rather than a requirement. Sleep becomes negotiable. Hunger is delayed. Pain is pushed through. Winter is ignored. Mothering is squeezed into margins. Aging is resisted. Grief is timed. Joy is scheduled.
Even our language reveals the capture.
We ask whether something is “worth our time,” as though time were a possession to be traded. We speak of “saving time,” though no one has ever stored an hour in a vault. We accuse ourselves of “wasting time,” when what we often mean is that we were being human in ways the machine cannot monetize.
We have learned to think of time as money because we have been taught to live inside an economic imagination that values production over presence.
And so we become estranged from ourselves.
Estranged from the kind of knowing that cannot be rushed. Estranged from the fertile pauses out of which insight, healing, and new life emerge. Estranged from ritual. Estranged from the dark. Estranged from waiting. Estranged from the sacred intelligence of ripening.
This is not only psychological. It is embodied.
Our nervous systems know when we are living out of rhythm. Our hormones know. Our sleep knows. Our cycles know. Our digestion knows. Our spirits know.
Even if we cannot explain it, we feel it.
We feel it when we wake to alarms instead of light.
We feel it when our days are sliced into units too small for depth.
We feel it when every moment is measured against output.
We feel it when we are praised for overriding ourselves.
We feel it when rest itself becomes another performance metric.
What has been colonized is not only our schedule.
It is our relationship with reality.
Because when one model of time becomes dominant enough, it begins to shape what people believe is real. The measurable becomes more legitimate than the felt. The scheduled becomes more legitimate than the seasonal. The visible becomes more legitimate than the intuitive. The official becomes more legitimate than the ancestral.
A calendar, then, is never just a tool.
It is a worldview.
It is a declaration about what counts. About whose rhythms matter. About what kind of life is being organized and for whom.
This is why reclaiming our relationship to time matters so deeply.
Not because we need better time management.
But because we need temporal sovereignty.
We need to remember that there are many ways of being in time.
There is body time.
There is moon time.
There is season time.
There is grief time.
There is love time.
There is creative time.
There is healing time.
There is ancestral time.
There is sacred time.
None of these move according to the logic of the spreadsheet.
A seed does not bloom because it was optimized.
A wound does not heal because it was scheduled efficiently.
A child does not unfold on command.
A poem does not arrive because you squeezed it between meetings.
A woman’s body does not become wiser by being ignored.
A soul does not deepen in the language of urgency.
To reclaim time is to reclaim the right to honour the rhythms that make us human.
It is to ask different questions.
Not: What time is it?
But: What is this time asking of me?
Not: How do I fit more in?
But: What wants ripening here?
Not: How do I get back on schedule?
But: What rhythm have I betrayed?
Not: How do I control time?
But: How do I come back into right relationship with it?
This does not mean abandoning clocks or pretending we can all simply step outside systems overnight. Most of us live within structures we did not choose and cannot immediately escape. We have responsibilities. Children. Bills. Commitments. Work. Real constraints.
But remembering begins even there.
It begins when we stop calling our bodies the problem.
It begins when we stop mistaking exhaustion for success.
It begins when we honour the need to pause before we have permission.
It begins when we let winter be winter.
It begins when we allow grief to take the time grief takes.
It begins when we stop apologizing for cycles that were never wrong.
It begins when we create rituals that restore us to ourselves.
It begins when we tell the truth: the machine’s time is not the only time.
Perhaps this is one of the great tasks of our era.
Not merely to decolonize institutions, though that matters.
Not merely to decolonize land, language, or education, though all of that matters deeply.
But to decolonize time itself.
To free ourselves from the lie that life is best lived as a straight line of output.
To remember that existence is cyclical, relational, rhythmic, and alive.
To restore honour to slowness, gestation, silence, and return.
To re-enter the wisdom of the body.
To let the moon teach us again.
To let the land teach us again.
To let ceremony teach us again.
To let the dark teach us again.
Because the opposite of colonized time is not chaos.
It is right relationship.
It is living in such a way that the body is no longer at war with the schedule.
The soul is no longer exiled by urgency.
The sacred is no longer pushed to the edges of the day.
And time is no longer a master, but a field of relationship through which life can move with dignity.
We have been colonized by time.
But perhaps, together, we can remember our way back.
Back to the body.
Back to rhythm.
Back to reverence.
Back to the ancient knowing that life is not something to be managed into submission.
It is something to be met.
Closing Reflection
Where in your life have you mistaken imposed time for true time?
Where have you learned to distrust your own rhythm?
And what might begin to heal if you stopped trying to keep pace with a world that has forgotten how to listen?
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